Rainbow in Rust 12/30/05
Unless you've delved deep into the troves of my Flickr photos, you've probably never seen this photo. Why do I post it? Firstly, because you've never seen it, and you deserve to either like or dislike it. You also deserve to tell me if you like it or not.
Slightly more accurately, and also secondly, I post it because it looks confused. And I sympathize with it, because I feel confused. [insert wise and profound analogies linking every aspect of my life to every aspect of photo here] Why am I confused? I don't completely know. Am I even confused, or am I just faking myself out? Hmm...confusing.
Perhaps, confusion isn't the word for it. Sure, it's part of it, but not the complete-ness. So add in a little discouragement, tired-ness, apathy, etc...the bottom line is that I'm not feeling too great.
Again.
You see, joy is what drives me in life. I usually feel joy in so many ways. For example: a peanut-butter-and-honey-open-face sandwich. I can usually find joy in anything, wherever I am.
But today, today I feel no joy. And I don't know why...hence the confusion part. I'm also noticing that when I feel no joy, I have no motivation to do the things I must do - homework, etc. And now I'm wondering how to end this post interestingly. But I don't think I can. So I'll just say goodbye, or something.
Dan
p.s. I'll live, don't worry.
3 comments:
I know the feeling.
Music helps. "You Are My Joy" might help. Well, perhaps I'm the only one on earth that Crowder music fixes everything for. :) Mostly because it's my favorite means of worship, and worship tends to fix everything.
Once again, I love your honesty, Dan. You're awesome.
Here's to joy, whenever and wherever it comes.
sometimes joy will find you when you least expect it. and maybe you don't need to search for it so much. God knows what you need and don't worry, He will take care of you. Let go and let God, right?
i like the picture. it has very nice colors in it- id even consider putting it on my wall. ;) I think maybe u could use some Josh Groban or maybe.. yes maybe david crowder. He makes me all happy inside. Take joy in that u are alive and in fact, alive for Christ and not to mention on fire for Him! you are too great! i love your writing! u make me laugh and smile! i'm glad i get to go to school with you!
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